Too blind to see straight... too wrong to be right..... too much to deal with
why cant i just as he said drop flows to a demo
why cant this thing be a whole lot more simple
Considering i know i have the skills and resources
why must i consider who what i say has implications on future ways and means, cus it might get in the way of me doing the things ive committed to myself id do and get  done before my life is through... its like a burden that enslaves and saves me at once... im not free to do as i please but im free to know ill life my life meaningfully so long as i dont go back on this and that statement retract....could i even spit this or is it just bussiness i gotta get out of the way to get something on burned disc to attest to the talent ive been hearin inside my head and inside my whip as i commute to and from school witht the cd turned up rappin to myself just to hear that its actualyl realyl and truly finally on beat... i hear my flow spew incredible things that i lose again cus i just release them out my mind to the void vaccums me so i cant accumalte the knowledge and preperation level i need to begin...should i swear of halo the second and all of the minutes ive spent on rainbox 6 the third edition even though the fourth is own the way and bks my clan was top of the world after i left the first time... why did i go back... im i too bored to rap... whered stevie go wheres pat.... why did stephon pull a knife like that... did i tell him to do it if i did what for i guess it was actually my xbox by "stolen" or more accuratley left by me at the fliss residency and them bein on vacation i couldnt get it but didnt know it thought they was dickin with me so i said man, they got my xbox, come with me to get it back..  Matt was there too but to fucked up to be of any use... so we went the three of us to that door next thing i know stephs got somethin in his hand and a look in his eyes like he just so muthafuckin high and if he dont get this xbox back someones gonna die... i was scared ill be the first to admit it, lost control of the situation so quick,,, now im as desperate to explain to him as thouse that he is threatening that its not like it seems, an accidental inaccessability not a fuckin theft please believe me i didnt want it to get like this... then like that its over, well sorta, i had to sortout shit with the guys who had it later about why i was with this kid with this knife... but mroe significantly me and steph werent ever the same after that night... its not that i hadnt seen that type of violence before but i thought it was violence that begets violence always it was precipitated by situation not randomness, i was there i saw it spiiral out of control like a lost mans soul sync straight down to the dephts of hell